I want to be anointed with oils of Rose and Sandalwood.
I want to live where I can smell the ocean each morning when I rise.
I want your full attention on me....device down, eye contact, touch.
I want oysters....a kiss from the sea.
I want sleepovers that involve tequila and giggling and no sleep.
I want to laugh till it hurts.
I want to surprise you.
I want to surprise myself.
I want to see my love lean into and embrace what he wants & needs, in our 19th year.
I want to be the ocean and the shore.
I want to feel alive....hydrated...fed...in every cell of my body.
I want clean sheets and piles of pillows.
I want longer hugs.
I want honesty and real and raw and imperfect.
I want more
I am becoming
A woman who carves out time for herself
A lover of space
One who claims her authentic knowing
One who meanders without a destination in mind.
I have started using #sacredpause to mark the moments in time where I am focused on my own care.
These photos are often taken at the beach, immersed in creative work, or when I am surrounded by silence.
#sacredpause is a reminder that I am no longer willing to live an exhausted, robotic and unfulfilled life.
I am claiming self preservation and know that I am responsible for the creation of my happiness and my future. These photos remind me of this truth.
xo - Kristen
Sunday was a very teary day. A post medical conference day. A day full of overwhelm and processing and fear. A day full of questions. I knew that my Monday would need to have a beach stop in it.
On Monday after I dropped kids to school, I grabbed coffee and headed to the beach to walk, reset and get some space. The sea is my heart home. Where I return again and again to receive comfort, soothe my heart and get clarity.
I wandered, intent on not doing anything. Only focused on movement and breathing in the salty ocean air. At my feet I noticed the tiniest of sea urchins. So delicate and small. I am a believer in animal messengers and spirits. So here was the message from the urchins.
Sea Urchins (from www.starstuffs.com)
"Sea urchins teach discernment and the art of underlying circumstances. Slow and methodical, she shows how to maneuver with tenacity and patience. Nothing is impossible when Urchin is guiding you. Monitor defense mechanisms. Do you have tough exterior and soft inside? Urchin will teach this balance of rough and tender. Evolution, metamorphosis and new developments are highlighted with Sea Urchin medicine. She teaches ways of extracting information out of the rubble of the mind and of day to day activities. Care of your feet, physical movement and grounding properties hallmark Urchin's meaning".
I love when I receive the exact medicine that I need.
xo - Kristen