“One day a hummingbird flew in. It fluttered against the window till I got it down where I could reach it with an open umbrella. When I had it in my hand it was so small I couldn't believe I had it but I could feel the intense life--so intense and so tiny. You were like the hummingbird to me. And I am rather inclined to feel that you and I know the best part of one another without spending much time together. It is not that I fear the knowing. It is that I am at this moment willing to let you be what you are to me. It is beautiful and pure and very intensely alive.” ― Georgia O'Keeffe ![]() In 2006, I traveled to Santa Fe, New Mexico for a medical conference. This was a milestone trip, as it was my first time away from my kids (who were six and four years old) and Marc. I arrived in New Mexico and found space, solace, and sunshine. And at that time in my mom life, I didn't realize how much I needed it. With this breathing room, I began to remember who I used to be, before I was a wife and mother. I could feel her presence there with me in the desert. And with this space, I walked for miles, under blue skies and next to orange buildings. Just walked. And smiled. And breathed. And when I left for home, I knew that one day I would visit again. Two weeks ago, I returned to Santa Fe. A longing that I have held since 2006, when I discovered this heart home of mine. This is my sacred healing space. Full of messages, guides, and magic. Beauty, decay, bones, spirit and blue skies every day. And again I walked for miles. Walking meditation with all the tears. I was full of joy and sadness and grief and anger. I just let go. And fully surrendered. Something I rarely make space for in everyday life. And in that open space, I received....
Guidance from the universe. Healing love and laughter. A bathtub full of rose petals. Direction. Lessons in breathing underwater. So many horses and hawks. And Miracles.
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Kate Hinton
4/11/2015 12:25:18 am
Kristen, this is beautiful- I too have a deep connection w/ the desert and have not been since I went to Sedona with a girlfriend and my 3 month old son in 2008. Your post brought back the feeling memories. So needed right now- Thank you!!
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